Eventually, all things merge into one, and a river runs through it. The river was cut by the world’s great flood and runs over rocks from the basement of time. On some of the rocks are timeless raindrops. Under the rocks are the words, and some of the words are theirs. I am haunted by waters
Norman Maclean
A retelling of my first-ever photo essay. Sitio Agusuhin (from the word agos which means “flow”) is a community fisherfolk in Subic who were displaced due to a deal between the government and the giant shipbuilding company Hanjin. This is a portrait of their intimate relationship with the water.
And it was all yellow
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Answered 24 in the post below :)
“talk about” reply number one: guilty pleasures
Response to this post, someone asked for 9 (about a vacation) and 24 (my guilty pleasures). Since I always post about vacations here, I’ll answer 24 first.
This post will be very different from my usual posts as it’ll be the most personal I’ve gotten on a public blog. Some of these things, most people won’t even assume about me.
1) I love makeup. Although I seem to project an image of myself that’s very low-maintenance and anti-appearance (on this blog at least), I’m actually not. I don’t know how it started, maybe after watching tutorials I got hooked? Or maybe it was the satisfying click of a lipstick bullet? The strange childhood floral scent I recall with certain powders? I could spend hours testing colors and identifying reds from reds and mauves from mauves. People who know me personally can probably guess that I wear the stuff everyday, but maybe won’t guess how much I love it as I really do. I don’t even think it should be a guilty pleasure because there’s nothing wrong with liking cosmetics at all, maybe for me I’ve been feeling guilty because I know I’ve been more and more dependent on it everyday.
2) I’m a complete fangirl. I know I am a lot of things, but I’ve been a fangirl for as long as I can remember. Most of my current interests, learned skills, hobbies, and life decisions owe their roots to my fandom. I owe my career in graphic design to those summer vacations in 2004-2005 when I made videogame signatures and avatars for people in Photoshop. This is pretty normal, I’m quite a vocal fangirl, but many people don’t know that I absolutely love KPop. Hehe
3) I used to struggle with trichotillomania. I used to derive satisfaction from plucking dead hairs from my head. I had unconsciously set aside time exclusively for the purpose of feeling for rough hairs that I had to take out. I distinctly remember this one time I was sitting down on the floor and it was a complete daze, maybe 30 minutes had passed and I had accumulated several frizzy strands and piled them neatly on a piece of paper. Really disgusting, but true. I’ve read all about it and somehow it’s also part of a larger syndrome called dermatophagia, which I think I may also have to look out for. Good thing, I’ve grown out of it, but I’ve been making a concrete decisive effort to avoid the habit.
“talk about” is a lot cuter than “ask me” so send me a number and I’ll talk about something below
canwe-createsomethingbeautiful:
- Talk about the first time you watched your favourite movie.
- Talk about your first kiss.
- Talk about the thing you regret most so far.
- Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.
- Talk about your biggest insecurity.
- Talk about the thing you are most proud of.
- Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.
- Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.
- Talk about a vacation.
- Talk about the time you were most content in life.
- Talk about someone you want to be friends with.
- Talk about something that happened in primary school.
- Talk about something that happened in high school.
- Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.
- Talk about your worst fear.
- Talk about a time someone turned you down.
- Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.
- Talk about things you do when you’re sick.
- Talk about your favourite part of someone else’s body.
- Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.
- Talk about what you do when you are sad.
- Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured.
- Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.
- Talk about your guilty pleasures.
- Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.
- Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.
- Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.
- Talk about the end of something in your life.
I’ll try to answer with photos :)
(via presidents)
150728 - State of the Nation Address Protests 2015
Juan Portrait - Community Frames
We go to communities and teach children hands-on photography, lend them cameras to use for a certain period of time, come back to collect the photos and then we produce them into an exhibit for their community.
These photographs are not by me, but by the children in Paktil, Mountain Province. From the second photo, here are the credits: Edzzel Razo, Janna Ballo, Hazel Cawayan, Brandon Taynec, Giselle Balong-angey, Kate Loogan, Cesar Lawagey, Arnolita Tindo. We couldn’t be prouder. (The average age of the children who took these is *drumroll* 10! )
Kind of timely, because we’re leaving again for another round of Community Frames, this time in the village of Naguey :)
Smallness and the Sari-Sari store.
I was reading my favorite essay this morning: Nick Joaquin’s “A Heritage of Smallness” (please read it) and I thought his most vivid capturing of Filipino culture as a whole was to point out the sari-sari store. I remembered one of my favorite photography assignments was to take pictures and portraits for Hapinoy, a social enterprise built for micro-entrepreneurship, particularly the sari-sari store. As Joaquin points out, where else in the world can you buy individual cigarette sticks, cellphone credits by the peso, or single candies, sakto-sized soda bottles, or the ubiquitous sachet, only in the Philippines.
Hacienda Luisita Massacre, portraits of the families they left behind.
Back when I was still actively trying to push a semi-career in photojournalism (PS: I still want to), we did a story on the families of the surviving relatives of the Hacienda Luisita Massacre (November 4, 2004, 11 years ago). In my opinion, this issue remains to be the biggest personal scandal of the current president (more of his family, to be honest) that has always been swept under the rug for more national concerns. Either way, hoping that he’ll have more time to make amends to these farmers and land-tillers when he steps down from the presidency in 2016.
Twenty-six
Today’s my birthday and it’s an awkward age to be in. Nonetheless, I have much to be thankful for. Before the day ends, here’s a selection of shots from the first half of the year. Here’s to hoping I lose more of my twentysomething angst the rest of the year.